It's a tid bit chelly in hurr...

Dude I hella miss this & I am so thankful for that time for the Big Guy giving me strength, wisdom and courage. Just seriously reminiscing about the years gone by in my youth group REC. I’m blessed to have been part of this movement for 5 years and I do hope to participate more in the Catholic-Christian Ministry. Just recently venting to other of my fellow RECheads, just talking about the “phases” and the “negative” reactions from people. When I first started serving it was more about the “feeling” and the “social” aspect. Especially during High School, that is the motive of most teenagers to meet and greet, maybe meet those “cute somebodies” and having that “REC High.” As I (hopefully matured) in my faith it was more of the service purpose, trying to give back to others even though I may not be that perfect servant that I would want to be. During this time, I could already sense an acute degree of persecutions. Bold words like “hypocrisy” or “cliquey.” It bothered me a lot at first, especially coming from people who were part of the movement before and I was definitely being judged indirectly but outside looking in I could see why they felt the way they did. I do get a little offended, but I came to a realization that people change and I know that most people whether they like to admit it or not did have an overall good experience making the retreat. Just one thing that I thought was a tad juvenile is this whole hypocrisy talk, I mean aren’t we all the same trying to strive to be part of the ‘greater common plan’? So just because I am striving to be part of that greater good in different way than you are but making the same mistakes as you, makes me a hypocrite. Yes I am just as baffled as you are. Well moving on into a more mature role in this movement is advising and actually being a mentor. This can definitely be marked off as a second job sometimes, and it does get tiring taking on the load. I admit there are times where I was “doing too much” but that just me. I like being over the top, sometimes I do admit it may rub onto others a wrong way. I have been stepping back but I feel now that I am stepping 2 step backs, that the others are doing the same choreography as well. It is disheartening, but talking to others and speaking like Bob Marley, “everything is gonna be alright,” and “history repeats itself.” There is going to be the crash, but when you’ve hit rock bottom the only way to go is up. So I feel that I am in this transitional stage, I know some staff members may read this and do want to know the details, there is nothing to worry about. I also was to put it out there that we are not a perfect we’re striving for The Perfection (Christ) there’s a big difference. We are humans put through trials and tribulations every single day and fighting all these inner battles. So there are many lessons I have learned through REC the the good, ugly and bad there’s always going to be those times where I need to get back to the Heart of Worship and to the roots of it all - the ‘Foundation of our Faith.’